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The Auto-Biography of a Baby
You and mom were unaware that a life sparked to
existence the other day. Orgasm. That's what I was
called and that's what you thought I was. I heard you
and mom crying out in joy. I was happy for that. From
then on, I chuckled whenever I heard more and more
cries of joy. More and more orgasms, I thought.
I heard your friends praise you and mom, praise your
years of indefatigable love. I came to know how
wonderful a couple you were. I was proud of that.
When I was beginning to enjoy my anonymity, I heard
some sad tales. I learnt how you were gifted by
abandonment by your kith and kin against your love
marriage. I came to know how lonely you were and how
sadly you were starving for relationships. I am here
papa! I am here! I wanted to shout. I never wanted to
see you cry.
I remember the day when mom visited the doctor for a
minor check-up, only to know that a little life was
safely resting in the warmness of her womb. 'You are
pregnant!' the doctor said and she cried out in joy
and disbelief! You hugged mom and thanked the Almighty
with moist eyes.
From that moment, my anonymity was long gone and I was
a celebrity attracting all your attention! Daily as
soon as you were home, you would say a 'hi' to me by
kissing mom on her stomach and would talk to me for
sometime. More than mom, I used to await your arrival
back home for your 'hi'! And with your 'hi' you made
me your best friend. You were my best friend too,
papa.
Relaxing myself in the cushion of the womb, I used to
enjoy your mock arguments with mom over my gender!
While mom wanted a boy, you were desperate for a girl,
a girl who would look just like mom. Of course I am a
girl papa! How can your best friend ever betray you??
And when the sonogram revealed that the life inside
was of a girl's, you jumped in exaltation and victory.
"Jr. Yashi", that's how you used to call me, and I
loved it. What better a pet name than assuming mom's
name?? Again, you and mom would debate and quarrel
over my real name. No wonder I never was bored inside
the womb!
But I found the place inside the womb getting squeezed
up day by day. I knew any slightest attempt for
freedom might pain mom to death. But one day, I
couldn't help but slid down mom's stomach and break
free. I was born!!
'It's a girl!!' the nurse announced and only I knew
the bounds of your joy coz it showed in your kiss you
gave me and mom. Though my tender eyes couldn't see
you, some strange force lifted my hand and my fingers
clung to your finger, which you had held out for me.
It was my promise to you then, that I would hold your
hand forever. You acknowledged my promise with your
tears that fell on my forehead. I knew those tears
were a result of years of longingness.
Your tears then, were my first showers papa!
When I opened my eyes fully for the first time, all I
could see were wires and more wires. I thought I
missed mother's womb. I wanted to see you and mom in
all my desperation before something told me I wouldn't
last long. How terrible it would be to miss the
glimpse of my only friends??
Slowly but steadily, everything was blurring out, and
I saw two figures running near me crying. I knew it
were you and mom. It took my last ounce of energy to
keep my eyes open till I could see both of you in all
my limited clarity. But yippe I saw you! I saw my mom
and dad. Guess how you both looked like?? You and mom
appeared to be two fairies to me. Two fairies in a
helpless cry though. The expectant look in your eyes
said you still had a hope; and I felt I was the
guiltiest soul on earth, about to kill the hope in the
eyes of you and mom! God would never forgive me. You
held out your finger to me but alas it was too late.
Before I could lift the hand, everything faded out
like a distant dream.
Who would ever want to miss life with such a wonderful
mom and dad??
My friends here asked my name and I was endlessly
happy when I told I was Jr.Yashi. I thought, in a way,
I wouldn't have had the privilege of assuming that
name had I lived any longer. My friends also discuss
something about savoring mother's milk, swinging in
the cradle, playing with their first toy, sleeping in
mom's lap etc. And when they asked me what I enjoyed
the most, I said I enjoyed your hi's the most papa. I
said I enjoyed the love in my first showers. More than
everything, I said I enjoyed being born to you and
mom. What else matters to me my papa??
And what was my last wish do you know?? My only wish
then was to know how I looked like. I knew how you
would have loved to say I looked just like mom.
Instead, you kept weeping and I wasn't sure I looked
like mom. Did I?? Did I look like mom, papa??
I would get drenched in your love whenever you shed
tears for me. Every time you say a 'Miss you' from
down there, it's an 'I love you' to me up here. I want
to say I love you too, but I miss my voice. I want to
shout from here that I love you both; but alas my
vocal chord was muted.
I knew I broke my promise of holding your hand
forever. But papa, I never knew my 'forever' would be
so very momentary, like a passing cloud.
God here actually granted me to be reborn to someone
else. But I said I would wait for a lifetime to be
born only to you and mom. If I have another life, it
would only be with you and mom.
Won't I ever get a second chance papa?? Because I miss
you. I miss mom.
Oh Papa! I miss my life.
The End
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